I WISH...

I wish you could understand and be here when I cry.

Everything that has happened holds the questions, "why"?

We are trying so hard for absolutely nothing, it seems.

So far apart, both not knowing exactly what it means.

Once a week, or a minute here and there,

You leave me wondering if you even care.

I know that the situation seems hard and impossible for us

But, for some reason, I feel that "us" will turn to a must.

It's only been a few hours since we've been apart

And already I can feel the hole getting bigger in my heart.

"Stop crying, it'll be okay," is what people are continually saying.

But no one understands... this isn't a game I am playing.

Being together is all I can think about,

Like one of those good hits in baseball... but the ball goes out.

This could be a mistake but both of us are so unsure.

I wish someone knew, because I feel so insecure.

Should I keep trying or even think about you?

Because, slowly I can stop crying.

I don't know when this sadness will go away

But... I hope it will stay.

I have to eventually prove to you that I'm worth all your time.

Who am I kidding? I am probably never even on your mind.

Now, I know that isn't true because you always told me you cared.

And I know that is true because of what we will and always share.

NORAZURA BINTI ABDUL WAHAB

(A124502)

FST 2008/09